Hey there people,I am here to blog for this blog!!Kays it sounds rather dumb but yeah.God is AWESOME AMEN?Well,yesterday CSS was totally cool.I meant you see the whole Suntec Convertion is filled with many many people and were seated in the front too.I am totally startled by our puntuality for the FIRST TIME!!!

Well,in service i am sure during Worship and etc God sure did touch you people and spoke to you too as well bah.Well,I sure did.I've been struggling with alot of stuf and I am here to share a testimony with you guys.I meant this days as many of you should know what i am going through.The indecisive me,the emotional me and etc.I have been in a peak where totally droped into the valley so deep and so down.

At a point of time I totally didn't feel God's pressence at all.I was super devastated that i wish I din't know any of this Christian thingy.You see that sentece say how I was really feeling.I still appeared to be seeing that i am alrite.But yeah,no one really know.i kept everything to myself cos is like telling people = no use.

Before i sleep every nite,i pray super hard for everything to bo gone and hope this bad and worse nitemare good just dissapear.Just the same like escaping from it.But remebering the preachign of Pastor Jeff:
Escaping is never the way uh.But the thing is I've got no one to go.Well apparently thats an excuse.To be more precise,there are people there but i didn't go too.I really thank God for placing such a good CG for me.There are so many CGM.Seriosuly all of them are just like treasure that are hidden way deep,I just currently working on the MAP thats all.

I am learning to be authetic infront of GOD but I ought to open up to my CGM?Well yeah,i realised there are so many people for me to talk too.They are like there to help me,I need GOD, but the CG is there for me too.Only when problem start I just close my door deep shut from them. Only yesterday when God place a changed that make me sart to re-decide stuff and make me have a change of many mind set.

My thoughts and Mindsets have been renewed.i am starting anew.God place a new start in me everyday i wake up.So has he did it to you.GOD IS AWESOME AMEN?

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heyo! i just finished my qt, so late. gosh!
ok anyway. i read Psalm 78:1-30
but i just wanna highlight verse 8-17

⁸ They would not be like their forefathers—
a stubborn and rebellious generation,
whose hearts were not loyal to God,
whose spirits were not faithful to him.
⁹ The men of Ephraim, though armed with bows,
turned back on the day of battle;
¹⁰ they did not keep God's covenant
and refused to live by his law.
¹¹ They forgot what he had done,
the wonders he had shown them.
¹² He did miracles in the sight of their fathers
in the land of Egypt, in the region of Zoan.
¹³ He divided the sea and led them through;
he made the water stand firm like a wall.
¹⁴ He guided them with the cloud by day
and with light from the fire all night.
¹⁵ He split the rocks in the desert
and gave them water as abundant as the seas;
¹⁶ he brought streams out of a rocky crag
and made water flow down like rivers.
¹⁷ But they continued to sin against him,
rebelling in the desert against the Most High.

and while reading this few verses, i recalled all the people of israel whom despite seeing all the wonderful, unexplainable miracles, still doubted and rebelled against God.
like when moses saved the israelites and brought them out of egypt, when moses parted the sea, provided water, the israelites still complained and say they rather be slaves. and after that they even committed idolatry. then i got irritated, like why the israelites so stubborn? so stupid?, like why God already showed Himself real through miracles, they still like that.
but then God posted this question to me, "what about you?"
for a second, i really don't know how to answer God.
i mean, as i looked back, God has also blessed me countless times, and yet, sometimes i still choose to disobey God when i know its wrong, i still sin against God, i still don't wanna obey, don't want to submit. whoa i'm so sinful, i'm, one way or another, like the israelites.
i'm a sinner. gosh! i'm in no position to judge them because i'm also like them, a sinner.
wahh seriously i was taken aback. i want to change. i know i cant stop being a sinner, but i want to do my best not to sin, not to disobey, to obey despite reluctance, to do what is right rather than what i feel like doing.
yeah man!

- jade

valentines' day was so filled with love! haha!
i wrote cards to people. and the things i wrote are exceptionally mushy this time round, cause i learned from one of the sermon podcast at church office that Christians should be known for their love, cause God is love.
so as an application, i wanna boldly say out how much i love those around me.
those words i wrote are really from the bottom of my heart.
i remembered on the night that i was writing the cards, cher asked me why i wrote so much, cause she say she write very little.
i told her that i wanna take valentines' day to tell those around me how much i love them. good opportunity!
on valentines' day, there was FALL ess! it was awesome! the whole thing!
i really felt God's love throughout the service, especially during worship and sermon.
God's love is different and can never be found anywhere else. wahh i was like melting!
wahhh

I LOVE GOD!!
I LOVE EASTA2!
I LOVE EASTA!!
I LOVE EAST!

- jade

whoo! i just bought i very pretty notebook, and i'm gonna use it as my diary to God.
just like a diary, i get to express openly and let everything out, the difference is, i'm writing it to God. its one way i can talk to God, to tell God how i feel, to just pour everything out to God.
this also helps me focus, cause sometimes in the midst of talking to God, i'll get distracted by other thoughts in my head, and then i'll forget what i've said to God by the time i try to get back on topic.
so when i write, when i forget, i can remember what i've said to God.
this diary can also help me monitor my spiritual life. next time when i read and look back on what i've wrote, i can see what i've grown in and what i still need to work on.
i'm so excited!!! yay!!
why not you get a diary to write to God just like what i'm gonna do?

and also, valentines' day is coming!!!
and FALL falls on valentines' day!!!
LET'S DO OUR BEST TO INVITE PEOPLE TO FALL!!!
WAHH CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!!!
remember if we don't meet our goal, not only do we have to put yucky makeup, we also waste this opportunity to see our friends coming to know God!! WAHH
JIAYOU EASTA2!!

- jade

heyo peeps!
think today's service is very applicable for all of us. yeah i learnt alot.
one thing i wanna apply from the sermon is to entrust my hurts to God.
2nd point it say that God Will Relieve My Pain.
its really cool how the real shepherd takes care of the sheep. he mix sulphur and olive oil and pours it on the sheep's head to treat the wounds and keep flies away.
He takes such good care of the sheep and takes note of its every need.
like flies may be nothing much to the shepherd, but to the sheep, its so irritating and a huge problem to it. the shepherd cares so much for the sheep.
i know God cares for us as well, we are His sheep.
i believe all of us get hurt sometimes, mostly because of people. this includes me.
sometimes we expect a certain person to do something for us and when she doesnt, we get hurt.
like we expect our close friend to be there for you, but one day she can't, you get hurt.
or you expect someone to remember something important, like your birthday, then it sort of slipped her mind, you get hurt.
or your mum said something hurtful to you though she doesnt mean it, you get hurt.
yeah.. i've experience some hurts in my life because of people.
i want to learnt to surrender all these wounds to God, to let Him heal them.
though a scar is left, i wanna remember how God healed it and not how the person have hurt me.
yeah God, i surrender my hurts to You! let's surrender together.

and also, i just finished my qt.
i was reading Psa 66 and v18 says:
"if i had cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened;"
think some of us have some sins in our life that we haven't let go, be it lying, or holding grudges, or being jealous.
"cherished" here doesnt exactly just mean that you love the sin, you love lying or being jealous, but it can also mean that you're not willing to give up the sin or you havent fully surrendered it to God.
example, lying. you know you shouldnt lie, but you are super tempted to because you wanna gain something, or you don't want to get in trouble, whatever the reason, you still lie even though you know its wrong.
yeah i'm guilty of this sometimes too. nevermind, we're all sinful.
but i wanna change. let's change together man!
surrender our sins to God!
let Him take control!

- jade

HELLO EA2!!!!!
Kinda funny to see my name again rite?Well cos,I;ve done somethign covenient for me to blog here.Anyway,thank God for the birthday wishes and stuff haha.Really fetl blessed when i received o many birthday wishes from you guys eh:DWell,actually I am here to post abt a book that I've read its super nice.Is abt a teen that meet up with many many stuff.Know what?Its a Christian Book!!Cook eh,is 'Becoming Beka' seires.

I skipped book 1 and 2 started on book 3 cos it seems of much help.The name is called -THE PASSAGE-I encourage you all to read it.I done reading in less than a week.Someone like me who can't be bother to read books eventually flipped and reay the whole thing.So yeah,while i was reading i really felt God somewhere here and there too.Its really kinda nice.So yeahh^^Take a view at it.

Well,at the very last few section i came upon this sentence

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Juliet:
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet."

this is taken from the famous story by Shakespeare called Romeo & Juliet.
juliet said this when she wanted to deny her family name for romeo.
she said "what's in a name?", what's so big about a name? does it have special powers or treasures? "that which we call a rose, by any other name would smell as sweet"
a rose smells nice, but it smells nice not because its called a rose.
the flower, whatever you call it, it still smells the same, and nice.
you call it dumb, call it shit, call it anything you want, it still smell nice.

i think what shakespeare said means alot.
in the kingdom of God, we are called to serve to our best no matter what role we are.
be it a CL, UL, SDL, DL, whatever L, a shepherd or a sheep, we are called to serve God.
we are also called to take ownership of wherever God placed us. to take ownership of our cg, our schools.
we don't have to be a CL to do great things for God. we can even be a new believer and do amazing things for God.
even when we go to heaven, God doesnt reward us according to what "position" or "rank" we are. God is not like "oh denise, CL... very good, you get 1 million dollars", then "oh jade, chey you just a shepherd, 1 dollar"
this is just an example. God awards us according to our credibility, according to what we've done on eart, what we've sacrificed for God etc.
so let's not wait any longer, God has called us by name, let's step out and serve God. take ownership!! whoo! Go EASTA2! GO JUNYUAN EASTVIEW DUNMAN!!
WE WILL WIN!!

- jade

1)HELLO :)
2)My surname is neo and my name is shushan
3)I'm sec 4 this year NOT sec 2
4)I love travelling overseas ! especially Japan. Hope to stay there forever and ever and ever and ever with my family
5)I love sports : hockey;floorball(my CCA), rock climbing, cycling , swimming , volleyball, running , etc
6)I like to play marjong. And i feel like playing like now now now now now now now !
7)I grew up in a place called . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .u know what?
8)Its my house
9)I have never talk nor speak to my aunties and uncles before :)
10)Was taken care by maids ever since i was young
11)I am the youngest in my family
12)My mother miscarriage before
13)I have a older brother and a older sister who is very dumb unlike me :(
14)I have a group of friends , the group is called EAST A2. The people there are dumb too. Unlike me :(
15)My favourite no. is 41,my jersey number and my lucky number
16)I dislike milk , tau huey and all those that are related to this 2 things . including ida cause she like milk hahahaha joking
17)I like to watch tv . can stay in front of the tv for 1 whole day
18)I like to ride bike. When i was young i often go to those steep steep sand where people do stunts with their bike to play . I fell down once until i was injured badly.
19)I like to eat durian but don't like to get poke
20)I hope to study overseas
21)I LOVE GOD
22)I LOVE EAST A2
23)I LOVE MY FAMILY
24)i'm ending here
25)bye bye

1. i've been tagged five times, and i'm wondering if i should post 125 things about me instead?
2. i've decided to stick to 25. HAHA!
3. the thing that's going through my head now is, "who will actually read everything?"
4. relationship means a whole lot to me, so i'm gonna talk about relationship.
5. my relationship with God comes first in the top priority
6. family means alot to me, i love love love love love them! me and my household gonna serve the Lord!
7. i treasure friendship alot
8. no one knows me better than phua yanyu
9. no one scares me better than florence chen
10. no one annoys me better than jeslin chen
11. no one encourages me better than ng geckting
12. no one lames me better than jasmine sim
13. no one cracks me better than joleen lee
14. i have alot of friends
15. i have a number of best friends
16. i have a couple of close friends
17. i really enjoy my relationship with my caregroup
18. you all are the one whom i do life with ( eat, shit, sleep, bathe! )
19. my sheep(s) are silly, all of them!
20. life without relationship means life without communication
21. life without communication means life without conversation
22. life without conversation means no life
23. no life means no relationship whatsoever
24. and the cycle repeats
25. all in all, relationship matters!

HAHA i cheated, not all twentyfive things is about me! heh heh! =D