i was borned into a christian family, my dad's a christian, my mum is, even my relatives are.
but i never invited Jesus into my life before. its like just a name but has no meaning.
i used to hate going to church because my first church is a chinese church and its like more suitable for senior citizens. it has a very solemn atmosphere.
reading a chinese bible made it worse, i couldnt read the words let alone memorise them.
i would often fall asleep which leads to me being scolded by my aunt.
then i changed church, one that is closer to my house.
there was cellgroup, and its youth and in english.
better, but i still dreaded going there because i don't feel belonged to the group and see no point in it.
other then me constantly hopping churches, my life had no meaning.
in school, because i'm from a i was from a Em1 class, my classmates dislike me due to my enthusiastic, childish and weird personality. they see me as immature.
my good friends weren't really good friends, i just called them that because i talk to them more.
i seriously find my life boring. wake up, go school, go home, watch tv, sleep.
because of all this, i was very insecure, worried about how people looked at me.

secondary school was better, more friends and close friends.
but when i had problems and needed someone to talk to, even my closest friend didnt care much about me.

until sec 2 i met this girl named Joyce.
we ended up in the same History project group due to our register numbers. her is 6, mine is 5. haha! one day during the project discussion, she just asked me down for her church service like "hey, you wanna come my church? got event". i agreed cause its on saturday and i'm free.
after agreeing, at first i regretted the decision because i'm afraid that her church will be like mine.
like everyone sit in a circle, then the leader will ask questions and you have to answer. i was afraid that the leader will ask me alot of difficult questions concerning the bible which i don't know how to answer. so kinda hesistant.
but i didnt regret going.
hope church is indeed very different from the many churches i've been to. one word to describe it at that moment was "rock concert"
and during worship, everyone spoke in tongues. i was amazed and shocked! cause in my other churches, tongues were like holy language which only the leaders get.
so after that service i decided to change church. yay!
i met alot of persecutions from my relatives and family.
my relatives were afraid that the church teach wrong thing, my parents didn't like me constantly going out.
but praise God i'm still here!
i think its really God's plan. junyuan is my 4th choice, and i got in and met joyce and met Hope.
after accepting Jesus, i had more friends who love me just the way i am, and some are even like me. haha! and i found my purpose in life. definitely, my life is alot more abundant and filled with happiness! and i grew in my security, i know that no matter how people see me, i know that God still loves me.

- jade